25..

i dont know what to say anymore.. anymore about us..
there were times where you took pictures with friends and it really made me jealous.. times where you were close with your friends etc etc.. it all made me jealous..

but after a few days ago.. i stopped caring.. i stopped feeling jealous.. i stopped with all this envy nonsense.. i kept telling myself i shouldn't be depressed over a relationship.. i eventually did..

yes i did love you. you were special to me.. you were everything to me. we planned our future together. we planned lots of things.. im not the guy that could bring you everywhere before and im sorry for that..

our paths changed this year.. you had dreams you needed to fulfill.. you didnt want to be someone you hated..

you got exposed to new people. so did i. everything this year is new.

i always thought we could settle everything, i really tried to get you back, i called you, we talked. but you never wanted to finish the conversation..i totally dropped my guard with you.. and i'll be the same with next relationships. but thats me..

you said you needed me as a friend.. but i really dont see it though.. maybe you're just saying that cause you still somehow care about my feelings.. you still think that i need you maybe.
but do you really need me?

whats done is done i guess.. like you said.. 18 is a year where you make mistakes and wrong decisions.

time to close another chapter.. and begin anew.

tell me readers.. ''birds of the same feather flock together?'' or ''opposites attract?''

24..

i realized i only can blog when my heart is full of everything..

i always said i'll move on.. but how could i?. lols.. i'll just live with it i guess..

now listening to chinese song by Lee hom.. titled Ni bu zhi dao de shi.. really nice song..

would continue blogging more if i get more responses..

for now.. enjoy the song.. =)

23.

does anyone read my blog.. seriously? =/